I feel shame that this is how my nation and my town is making the news across the world. Seriously, the local media has been reporting the assassination of Camacho as something like a big entertaining even to sickening levels. Heck last night the local news channels and newspaper were reporting a fight between the members of his family during his wake. On top of that they have been reporting who has come, gone and who has not but no one dares to put into question of what is really going on. As for the real culprits of the crime…crickets’ sound. A very dim light with no importance. Do they really think that the most of the people of Puerto Rico are really that dumb!? Do they think that everyone who lives in this Island only cares for gossip, intrigue and more banal things of the death of Camacho or what he did while he was alive than to question and care of what has caused his death? He is death already, sure he brought glory to this island but his death is a reflection of what is happening in here, yet some people are don’t know…in living a fantasy or in denial in stating that Camacho is more important than what is really going on? Are some people dumb enough to forget that his death is the result of the ignorance of them of what is occurring day by day? The daily violence that we live, that we are in a war! Yes we are at war sure is not at the same level as the notion we have in our minds of war but we are living in a state of fear! I have spoken with friends who have been through wars in their own countries and from what they tell me they had felt during those times is how I feel. How can some people still live in denial of our own reality? How can I travel from point X to point Z without the fear of a lost bullet penetrating my body because of some little kid in his early 20s trying to prove the other kid that he has more guts and is capable enough of running the local drug joint? Of how the social inequalities have forced our youth and my generation to be almost lost in this violence?
I am appalled for it! Not only is because world re-known boxer is murdered is in it but because I am from his hometown, born, raised and still live here and still the violence continues to devour the best of our soul and in our society. It angers me that it no longer scares me the crap of a whimsical serenade of gunshots in the middle of the night because from a short distance whose sounds travels with the wind. I live between 4 big joints and I will not discard the possibility that the people who run some of the smaller ones might be people who I grew up with during my youth. In the past 3 years, I have seen how the drug war has taken the lives from several of my childhood friends if it has not been through murder they have been put away in prison. This is my reality! I am the first one to say if you can not beat drugs by going against it, then do something radical! Away from the conservatives views because what they have been doing and what our local government at the local, state, and federal level have been doing it ain’t working for the past decades! You can not fight violence with violence! Puerto Rico we must regroup!
Is really frustrating when I am asked by a friend from abroad: are you safe over there? Yes I am safe, I just deal with it with no drama although I am aware of the seriousness of the situation without getting my panic mode on. As a way of showing those bastards that I am not afraid and I will not let them control me by getting the best of me. I think this is how some people I know from here are also dealing with this. Most of us work with communities, sure we do have a safety protocol that is not official but they are our personal measures for own and for others that are around it. I do my best to spread it among those who I know. There are three that I always emphasize them. 1st is trust your judgement and instinct! The 2nd: don’t enter into unnecessary fights just because you want to prove you are right. The 3rd one do not flash out fancy goods…or like I saw recently pointing the camera of your smartphone at a stranger while is hanging on your chest.
From my point of view: is time to go down and start getting back our streets but not with the current frame of work which is based on blood for blood, violence with violence. Is time that we work to get to the core. I am still mad piss that the state government had the audacity of making another Status referendum instead of doing like the US Virgin Island in the past election which they were voting in favor of Medical Marihuana… a referendum for issues that are more important than a referendum that will just fall into deaf ears. ( Inner thought: I mean it probably would had made an impact if we had just left the 1st question but no some groups wanted to add the 2nd one into the mix…erg.)
We first need to get our
shit together then decide what can we do for our nation’s status after we have clean and put some order into the house. If we expect someone else to clean and put order to our issues then it is clear that we are still not mature enough to deal with issues like the ones of status.
Arg! This is pretty damn frustrating! I am going to make some cup of chai tea right now to calm myself!